Math Lab Day

It's like a throw back to Dickinson. You know all those wear school colors days. Good thing that Dickinsons color was red, cause I have a whole arsenal of red clothes to wear today. It means food, fun, ballons, and prizes all day long!!

Anyways- I guess the good news is I managed to pester the insurance company into giving me my own insurance. That means all in all, I will get my car in the near future, maybe within a week or so. I suppose you can say I've managed to chill out about the whole deal. I feel like I'm more calm with everyone, although I have been snippy recently. Being frustrated is not fun at all. But at least it's all over and done with.

I'm kinda nervous about driving to King of Prussia on Saturday. I'm not quite sure why I am though. I've just been in a state anxiety for a while now. It's weird because I really don't have anything to be at all worried about, outside of my car. I think I'm just weird. I've just been off for months.

I think I might not be able to make it up to Dickinson on May 6th, which bums me out. Maybe that is why I'm nervous. Doesn't seem like a good enough reason though. I'm still debating whether or not to go up to Dickinson on the 13th. Don't know if I want to be up there all be my lonesome and such (not to mention the price of gas :oP).

I have been trying to get into a regular routine with pilates. It isn't quite working though. I'm able to do it friday - monday, but not any of the other days. I try to at least focus on breathing and body carriage during the in-between days. So I see a little difference in the way I walk and how I sit at my desk. I might try keeping the calories low along with it. Might help matters if I don't eat like a pig all day long. I suppose you could say my overall goal is to get back into my running build without killing my knee even more. I think it's time to start getting up nice and early in the morning to do the exercise. *You all know I keep saying that, but I don't do it. Someone needs to get my sorry ass on that*

I had a really great song lyric, but I can't remember the song or the artist. So maybe it wasn't that great to begin with.


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sunny bunny

It's amazing what a week and a half of nice weather will do. All of a sudden my mood has become so much better. I feel more agreeable all because of the sun. Granted I'm still have a sad outlook on some things, but doesn't seem nearly as insurmountable as they used to be.

I had a pleasant call about a week or so ago with Ben about going through the whole grad school application process. It is really comforting to at least be able chat with him about how unbelievably annoying the whole thing is, from filling out the forms to taking the stupid tests. As a matter of fact, I'll probably be taking the Math GRE again cause I did so badly (okay not badly but not up to par with my usual perfectionism). I happen to be really nervous about things. I'm quite certain that by the time November rolls around I'll be on the verge of another bout with shingles (aka, herpes zoster) because of it. If I can't manage to get full funding, I really need to rethink what it is I want to do. I won't be able to pay tuition and live in a new place if I don't receive some sort of stipend. Bah, I'm going to try not to think about that until I actually figure out where I will apply to.

I'm sad cause I missed Soco last night. :oP for not having an RU id. :::sigh:::

I guess the other big thing is that I'm super close to buying my very own car. I happen to be really excited about it. I have been looking at this car for ages and finally just got myself worked up enough to go ahead and say, "Hey, I'd like to buy that car."

Oh and what is really nice....only 3 more weeks of the semester left here at BCC. That means summer....that means week to week my schedule changes. But it also means I get out of work at 1:30 on Fridays. Wahoo.

back to work

I just got to spend a much needed weekend up at Dickinson. I got to see the professors and pick up my thesis. It looks so purty all bound and hard cover like. It even has my name on the cover. I also got to visit the Infernos. They sound freakin' amazing. I mean...I thought our group was good....but wowie...they mesh so well together.

Anyways the weekend was just what the doctor ordered. Trips to market cross, salamandra's, and the inescapable cafe. It was nice to just chill out with the guys and watch movies and drink and such. I don't quite think I'll be able to go back to campus once they graduate. It just won't be the same.

So all in all, trip was good. And I'm back to working. All I have to report.

Rainy day....

I realize this is just coming from left-field but here goes nothing. This entirely rainy day has reminded me so much of being at Dickinson. I walked out into the rain to find a small little earthworm. I got whisked back instantly to the major rainfall in Carlisle. Walking in flip-flops, refusing to wear sneakers and socks cause I would just have to spend the next like hour drying them. Trapsing around Morgan field, hopping from open area to open area so as not to crush the massive earthworms who have decided to make the trek across the blacktop. It always made me happy to see them, although there were a couple of occasions where I admit...I did say "eeewww". They were always a sign the spring, the grass, the warmth, and the sun will be coming.


anyways...24 is on. catch ya later.

For Suzy....

The reason for the distraction yesterday was that one of the student tutors came in (And no, this is not the same student i talked about a long time ago...not the rocker/angry music boy). Yes, a good little eye-distraction. He sat at the desk right across the room from me, so I really couldn't help it. He is right in my line of vision when I look up. I feel kinda bad about it...but the boy is cute. Clean, boy next-store look is the best way to describe it. Very kind, a nice sense of humor. Bad side....he's a student tutor. :oP

It's like one of those stupid under the Coke/Pepsi/insert fave drink cap games.
Drink Coke, Play Again.

GRRR!

Trying Tuesday

Last Tuesday night, illness descended upon me. It just got continually worse. Thursday I called out sick. Compared to last year’s green beer before 1 in the afternoon in the UK pavilion at Epcot, it is not the first way I’d think of spending the St. Patty’s day. It was also the start of all the March basketball madness. For about 8 hours that day, CBS kept rotating between games. I was so out of it I couldn’t keep track of what teams were playing on the screen. The saving grace that day was that I managed to get some drugs to get rid of it. I really think my case of the shingles has just made my entire immune system absolutely worthless. It doesn’t help that the building I work in isn’t exactly up to building specs. (But that is what you get when you decide to change a huge barn into a teaching space.)

Anyways, fast forward to this today. It’s just one of those Tuesdays that won’t quit. Just moving so slowly and there really is nothing that you can do about it. Even helping people figure things out doesn’t make the situation better. I’ve slowly been realizing that this stuff, this whole being an adult business isn’t nearly as glamorous as it seems when you are like 5-6 years old. And this is what life holds in store for me, for what will probably be the next 60 years (+ or - 10 years of error). Yeah I realize it’s probably something that has hit everyone already, but I’m slow when it comes to life-affecting epiphanies.

I’m spending Easter and a couple more days all by myself. With the ‘rents going to see my brother, I’ll be on my own with the dog. Lots of fun. Crazy me got excited cause I planned out a whole bunch of home cooked meals for me to make. My parents laughed at me. Silly I know, but I never seem to have the energy to do any sort of cooking when I get back from work. It’s a big deal for me to actually be providing for my own nutritional value. Really, I’ll probably just end up having bagels for every meal cause I’m lazy.

Oh, I attempted to start my grad school applications. Stupid schools want you to fill out online apps. Yeah problem is I need to wait another like 3 months. Just throw the whole starting early bit right out the window. They won’t let you apply for fall 2006 until they’ve closed the app process for summer 2006. :::shakes fist angrily::: bass-turds!!!!

Not that anyone cares…Duke made it to the Sweet 16 but I think this is going to be where the run ends. I’m a super big fan, but it just seems like they are scraping through the games. No confidence to be found. Haven’t handed anyone a butt-thumping loss. ah well.

I’m slowly getting more excited about visiting Dickinson in week and a half. It’ll be a weekend where I may be able to actually relax a little bit. A throw back to a year ago, unwind a little bit, enjoy some time with the boys, maybe meet up with my infernos. I would like to see if I could stop by and see the math and physics profs as well.

randomness: I’ve figured out that I need to find someone who has common sense. That would compliment really well with the fact that I have none. Everything else should probably be secondary to that need. I just shouldn’t be picky anymore. It might just help matters if I actually went out every now and again.

I’m getting really distracted (yes there is a reason why…but I’ll write it later), so I think that is my cue to end.

Start of Spring Break...

yeah right, I happen to be working. Tell me whose swift idea it was for the lab to be open when there are no classes, the instructors aren't in, and sure as heck none of the students want to come in. Boo!!! As a side note, i really don't feel well today, I haven't felt well since Saturday (like hi stomach, what are you doing in my throat? You really shouldn't be there. Or the fact that my muscles can't seem to relax for longer than 5 minutes before I have to re-adjust the way i'm sitting/standing/laying/etc). I should probably get it this whole situation checked out. It just throws me for a loop every single month, if you catch my drift.

Random girl pain and agony aside, the weekend was super enjoyable. Suz came down on Saturday in the afternoon. Kona was super excited to see her and boy did he get the good end of the deal. He was so good, calm, and just sat there being petted. Silly puppy. Suz was so good putting up with me and my wanting to watch the Duke/ NC State game. I'm such a push over when it comes to watching my college basketball. Afterwards, we headed over to the Fox and Hound for some eats and good beer. Our waiter was mildly interesting. For some reason he didn't believe we could handle drinking our beer and eating our meals on our own without him checking up on us. We chatted it up. I miss being able to sit face to face and just talk about parents, stupid school/job, boys, and general gossip. Suz- I know that whatever you do (moving to new areas and such), you'll without a doubt be able to find a circle or group of people to hang with. (I trust you will be able to better than I will) Besides, I'll always come to visit. oh, i'm not trying to think about that thing you gave me to think about. But you know me, my brain has it going on there in the background. Just have to let the fun ensue right? Getting back from the bar, we decided to watch Newsies. Such a great movie.

Sunday we headed down to see Dana and Abby. It was so good to see Bubbles. Suz got to meet Chloe. It was absolutely marvelous that it was bright, sunny, warmer than usual, and not to windy. So we took a walk to the Broadway Grille for some lunch. Yum Yum. We headed over to the beach, just to take in the sight, and then found some yummy ice cream. Half the housie- crew. It felt so comfortable. Almost like home, even if it was for just a couple of hours. Sometimes I just wish, that it would be possible for everyone I cared about to be in a close proximity and still be able to explore and find everything they could possibly want or imagine. But my head knows, with sickeningly mathematical precision, that that wish won't happen. Just too old fashioned I guess. Best right now are little visits and trips, I suppose until we all figure where it is we want to go in life, and what it is we want to do. Anyways, after all that it was time to part. When suz left my house, Kona just kinda sat looking out the door. He was kinda sad the rest of the evening, and that made two of us.

But on the bright side, I'm very happy that my Dukies (cause they are no one else's) have a number 1 seed in the tourney, although I'm not quite sure they deserved it. Too many teams could be in their place. But I've been surprised all season at the hard work and tough games they've put in. All the craziness starts this Thursday. So lots of games to watch.

~~love~~

random

I could have died this morning. But i didn't, you'll be happy to know. Not even a quarter of an inch of ice on the roads can keep me from work. Not to mention it is freakin' cold out.

Speaking of dieing- I found out that my birthday is the tenth most deadliest day of the year. I suppose that I shouldn't go inviting lots of people to my house for a drinking party on my birthday, should I? Would I then be considered an accessory in death?

This June...I was able to finagle my way into take vacation days...and can you guess where I'm going? I swear you won't guess. I'm sure you'll ne...Disney World. I guess I'm a little too predictable. I can't help myself. I'm really excited. But you all know me and disney.

Suzer is coming in like 3 days. Hurray. I have no ideas for activities. I guess if it is still cold out, we could try to go ice-skating in the park. The mall isn't super exciting. I would say go walk around New Brunswick...but i dn't know what there is to do in NB. Guess maybe hitting Blockbuster is a good bet. Then going to see Dana on Sunday. I haven't seen her in a while. I'm such a doofus cause I work like 20 minutes away.

I'm really psyched for this though. Mark your calendars...April 1st (yes I realize it's April Fools) I am going to Dickinson to meet up with all the boys...and Suzy too. I have been going through hug and market cross withdrawal. Be there til Sunday. So much fun awaits.

Catch you cool cats later!!

No unbeatens left!!!!

Yeah i just posted....but this OSU-Illinois game was absolutely miraculous. A 3-pointer with 5.1 seconds left to give the Buckeyes a one point 65-64 lead.

I love me some ncaa bball.

it's getting to be that time of year....

March Madness!!! Yeah, it's championship time. That means loads of nitty-gritty, crazy downtown, and last minute buzzer beaters. It also gives me bunches of reasons for me to stay home all night. Not that I should.

Last Friday beck, josh, and steve met up with me at the fox and hound. It was pretty chill. Not the college crowd. More the early 20s to early 30s crowd. Felt good.

Saturday suzer is coming to visit. hurray. only thing i've come up with is going to fox and hound with her. i don't know if there are any good movies out. i can't think of anything else that is cool to do around here. also need to talk to dana about going for lunch on sunday.

I think I need to change my daily routine-ness. Lately I haven't done any sort of pilates. i know it is taking a toll for the pure and simple fact that my headaches (back of the neck, base of my head) have suddenly returned with a vengeance. I've found that the pilates cause me to stretch everything out. I need to get up earlier do the pilates and then get ready for work.

Now it's just a matter of making sure I do that.

my love to all