Day 245 - September 11, 2010

Wow.  Has it really been 9 years since that fateful day??  I remember it like it was yesterday.  I was living in a quad with Dana, Laurie, and Margaret at Dickinson.  It was a Tuesday and I was getting ready for my Intro to Women's Studies course.  We had the television on in our common room.  The news was on.  And all of a sudden it starts.  I remember remarking that it was something straight out of a Tom Clancy novel.  (Indeed the scene is just like one in a Tom Clancy novel.)  It all happened so quickly.  We head out to class but you can tell the mood was not normal as everyone gathered around talking before class started.  Our professor came in to cancel class.  Sometimes there are events that are so much more important than school.  I remember walking to the HUB.  Lots of students just watching the tv's there in shock.  I remember calling home that day to see if my uncle was alright - while not in the towers, he was nearby.

Today I think of it from a slightly different angle.  Coldblooded massacre - that has been the reason for the start of two wars, and two tours of duty in Iraq for Andy.  I am heartbroken in more ways than one this year.  It is unfortunate that tolerance is not the way of the world.  It is still filled with hatred for those who are different.  I am not sure if it will be a problem that will ever be resolved.  One can only dream.

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On a slightly happier note - I wrote up a whole bunch of lessons.  So I am set through Chapter 2 - which brings me to the beginning of October.  I think that I might have some issues with my PLC group this year.  Last year was pretty good.  Interesting topics.  But we have added several other teachers to the group this year.  It seems I have already been called out for not "participating enough" by one of these new members (not by name I assure you - generalization of the new/young teachers in the group).  I eased the tension by stating that "while I don't speak up frequently, as a new teacher I am here absorbing all that wonderful knowledge you experienced teachers are sharing".  It was enough to get a chuckle from the group.  But I think I will be on this teacher's "list" from here on out.

I love love love my faucet.  The sink seems so much bigger and I can move dishes and pots and pans freely.

Big Love to my new cousin Declan.  He's a cutie pie.

Hurray - Gamecock win over Georgia!  We are now 2 - 0.

Day 243

I am in a funk.  I am not sure how else to explain it.  I just feel like there are very few coworkers there I can relate to or have a decent conversation with.  So I sit and hang in my room - I refuse to go to the Teacher's Lounge at lunch.  I'll just end up talking smack about my students - and I am really trying this year not to think ill of them.  As much as I try, it isn't working.  Some of them are just not making a great impression on me (don't take that the wrong way - this year is better than last year by far when it comes to students).  But I feel a little left out of the loop.  Like I am not involved.  Believe right now I have no desire to add an extra curricular activity to my list - but I just feel like I have no roots.  No connections.  No one there really gets the whole army thing and I don't have any kids. 

I guess some of it is partially my fault.  I don't go seek others out for company - I sit in my classroom and grade papers over lunch.  But I try my very hardest to be happy smiley face and say good morning or good afternoon to everyone.  I suppose I'm just way to quiet or boring to have lots of fellow teachers want to initiate a conversation.

It just feels really odd in comparison to the two years at Brookdale.  I got to really know the ladies/gents I was working with and it happened fairly quickly.  It was so easy to shoot the breeze.  Maybe I just am not in the right environment.  But we will leave those thoughts for another ponder-ance.  Maybe a few months down the road...

Day 240 - Eight months down

I wrote most of this entry out before i realized today is 8 months completed. We got to start month number 9. I can't wait.

Sitting here watching the VT vs Boise state game. Finally taking some time to relax. The past two weeks have been crazy. It seems like such a long time.

School started and I must say it has been a step up from last year. No real behavior issues to speak off- except for my 7th hour which has end of the day-itis. I am excited about the year is some respects and in other not so much- lets just say I got comfortable staying home with Silvio . But it is nice to only have 1 class to prep for. Major difference this year is the fact that the students are doing homework. So i have about 100 pages of work to grade nearly everyday. Crazy. I want to change that but not sure how.

Birthday weekend has been okay. Birthday day was long and somewhat painful. I did not plan to spend all day at school. Oh well.

Up this week: short school week- thank goodness. I bought a new faucet ( pseudo birhday present for both me and Andy) so i need the plumber to come in this week to switch out the faucets. Andy got me a santoku knife which i cant wait to use- but our knife block doesnt have enough space for it. Trip to bed bath and beyond maybe. There is a cooking class this week but it is in Topeka. Don't think i want to deal with a 2 hour road trip on top of a long day at school.

Catch ya later.

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Day 236 - Celebrate...

Because it's my birthday.  Yep.  Another year older.  Spent 80% of the day at school.  Long day with the students - then the school's present to me was a shortened schedule for the parents to walk.

I feel weird dealing with parents.  Because most of them appear to me like my parents.  And I am sure more than one of them thinks - well who is this crazy gal who looks like a student teaching my kid.  Just weirds me out.  But I didn't get my head chewed off so i guess that is a good thing.

Technically I am now older than Andy.  Does that make me a cougar for the next two months until his birthday?

I promise promise more entries.  School has been crazy - better than last year but crazy.  I have tons of phone calls to make back to people and I am so happy about all the facebook messages I got today.  It makes me feel so loved even though I am out here in tornado country by myself.

Anyway, I have some last minute stuff to take care of - but I think I might just go to bed.

More entries to come....I swear.

Day 227 - First Day of School

Here we go.  Another school year has started.  Not liking the fact that it starts on a Tuesday.  At least it was a half day.  I believe I was sufficiently meaner than last year and gave a lot of evil eyes today.  I just need to continue the trend.  Wednesday I will read them the riot act and then I need to stick to my guns and catch them early on.  I already have my eye on a couple of them. 

I don't want to jinx it - I think this year might be a lot better than last year.  Granted I will have more work seeing as my class sizes have nearly doubled in size.  My last hour class has 28 students.  I only have 25 desks but we made it work.

It was neat to have a bunch of students wandering the halls who actually knew me and said hello.  I actually felt like some of the other teachers - ones who know bunches of students.

I got a lot of compliments as well.  I wore a skirt - SHOCKING.  I did my hair nice - compared to wearing it back all year.  One of the other teachers actually said I looked a lot thinner.  Yey, thank you.  I didn't think anyone would really notice.  Since Andrew has left, I have lost about 7 pounds and now I am working to maintain that.  Was very nice to hear.

I feel quite exhausted today even though I didn't do much.

Hey - I'll have visitors tomorrow and that makes me happy.  The more intriguing thing will be if I manage to be awake when they get here.

Day 225

I had some fantastic visitors this weekend.  We had loads of fun.  I did not get a chance to write about my cooking classes.  Send me evil email messages - maybe sometime I'll actually be good about writing that post.

I was supposed to get a call from Andy today.  Unfortunately, there was a communications blackout.  That means there is a not so good incident that has occurred.

Tuesday marks the start of school.  Ugh.

Right now I am really tired, need to walk Silvio, and then I plan on passing out.  Our exciting weekend has left me with little to no energy.

Day 222

I have not fallen off the face of the earth.  My body was recovering from the clean up job from the storm and my brain has not been able to stay on one topic for longer than 30 seconds lately.  It's amazing I am prepped as I am for school. 

I want to write a post about the cooking classes I have been going to.  They really are fun and if your local grocery store offers one you should really try going.  I think this is a new trend because I don't remember there being supermarkets that did that a couple of years ago.

Silvio is mad at me.  I had my first day back to be professionally developed.  He was alone for the whole day.   He has been giving me evil looks all night.  Not that I blame him - I would rather have been at home the whole day today.

So no post tonight - maybe I will be coherent enough to write one tomorrow or over the weekend.  Sorry.

Day 216

Today's events are the reasons why I miss my husband.

At 11:30 am, a thunderstorm hit our area.  Wind gusts of about 30 - 40 mph.  I was actually quite excited for this one.  It had cooled things down considerably - except that lasted all of 20 minutes.  I did get worried enough that I brought our outdoor rocking chairs on the front porch inside the house.  Thank the lord I did not put them back out.

At about 4:10 pm, the weather radio went.  Thank goodness I got this new weather radio.  I love it.  It tells me a severe thunderstorm watch, then 2 minutes later it goes off again saying it has switched to a warning.  The storm is noted as having 60 mph winds and quarter-size hail.  As an observer of the weather, it is quite normal to be able to see most approaching storms coming from the west through our dining room window.  Oh yes, weather radio you were right.  There was a massive gray/black cloud.  I give another minute - watching by the window.  Then what seems like hell - breaks loose.  I watch two cars pull onto our street and park.  It's raining - more like pelting.  My neighbor is outside on her deck trying to get something secure.  I watch her swing set swings go nearly vertical.  Small toys are being bounced along down the street.  Another neighbors basketball hoop is down and has slid down their driveway and up the street about 7-8 feet.  I look back to the dinning room window - branches, not from my trees - up in the air.  15 - 20 feet in the air, swirling.  OH Shit!  I won't even try to bleep that out.  I run to the bedroom grab our emergency lantern, grab phone, and frantically start pulling down every blind in the house.  I go to turn off the computer and at about 8:16 ~ 8:17, there is no need to worry because the computer is dead and all the lights are out.  I make sure the front door is locked, grab my purse, Silvio's leash, a toy, phone, lantern, and scream at Silvio to follow me down the stairs.  He's way out of it.  I throw the stuff down in our workout room by our "safety" closet. (The "safety" closet - has all of Andrew's extra army gear - which is a lot, and I have added to it cases of bottled water, first aid kit, meals that are not canned, but don't need heat to eat.)  Silvio is running up and down the stairs, I pick him up off the landing as I hear a massive boom as it shakes the house.  I run into the workout room and plop on the floor.  I watch through the underground window as rain, branches, and later hail come bouncing down.  In the dark with our little lantern - you can hear the wind cause the windows to rattle, the walls to creak, and the thunder that shakes everything.  More thanks to goodness, I chose to charge my phone last night.  I had a full battery.  Texting my mother.  Who else would I call??  I estimate at 4:20 - 4:25 she tells me that there was an alert at 4:17 for quarter size hail and 80 mph winds.  I reply that is hailing as we speak.  At 4:34, she texts again, this time a better message, warning until 4:45, wind speeds clocked in excess of 90 mph at the Manhattan airport.  The airport - shit.  That is down the hill from me.  The planes descend over our house all the time - it's so close you can make out all the windows in the aircraft.  It isn't even a 2 minute drive from our house.  Thanks - just give me the willies all over again.  I notice through the underground window that the wind is starting to slow around 4:45.  It's still raining like a crazy person so I come out a little into other areas of the basement.  No damage down here.  A little bit of water came in through the windows though because they are side opening.  I decided to venture upstairs and everything is in tact.  Again just a little water came through the side-sliding windows.  I see my neighbors outside assessing - so I figure it is safe to do that same.  Only one thing outside did not make it.

Our patio furniture.  I assume it was lifted or dragged sideways about 20 - 30 feet into our neighbors yard.  The glass top shattered.  Not sure if any of the chairs are still in tact but thank goodness again, this time for Andy.  He used a crazy (I say that now but really I'm so glad he did) reinforced metal cable to connect all of the chairs and table together.  He then bought a 30 pound weight and connected to the table by means of the umbrella.  No the umbrella was not attached but the metal bottom part was.  So right now the table and chairs is one tangled mess - but all accounted for.  I can't imagine what would have happened if they were  still loose patio furniture.  I'd probably be sobbing on the phone with our insurer right now.  Here is an after picture:

It continued to rain for another half hour or so. Around 5:45 it had stopped raining.  At a quarter to 7, the electricity turned back on.  Thank you Westar for working so quickly.  After I walked Silvio at 8, this is the sky view that we had:
Tomorrow is day to clean up and I think everyone in our neighborhood is glad nothing more than some patio furniture or loose gardening supplies had any damage.  Everyone was safe.

So yes, today I miss Andy.  Because my stress level has gone through the roof.  I was going to have done a bunch of lesson planning but that doesn't help if it's dark, you have like no light, and your head is calculating the probability of the roof coming off your house.  Andy would have kept me calm.  Or more likely than not, he would have scared the crap out of me by going outside and checking the patio furniture or something crazy.  But maybe not in this situation. But it would be sooo nice if he was here to help when I have to clean up this table and chairs.  No idea where I will put them while I wait for garbage day to roll around.

Guess I can't complain, I'm still here with both feet planted firmly on the ground.  But I doubt I'll get much sleep tonight.

Day 214

Well I am starting to feel the crunch.  I finished my required teacher float day in the building.  I find it a little absurd with all the construction going on.  Sometimes the network works, sometimes the air conditioning works, sometimes my stapler works...  Yes I throw in the stapler because I spent an hour and half decorating a 5 x 4 bulletin board.  This shouldn't be a hard task but the stapler inevitably would jam every third time I pressed down on it.

On the upside, my classroom is relatively ready to go - with the exception of my projector.  I can get away with not using the first few days - but I need to scrounge up an extension cord (which disappeared sometime over the summer) and put the whole thing back together again.  I spent today proofing my Expectations and Policies and its corresponding homework assignment.  I mapped out the first few weeks - through the first chapter test.  I plan on giving a pre-assessment to see if I will need to review how to solve linear equations and the like.  I have one from last year that I gave to my Geometry class.  I am pretty sure I could get away with giving both the Geometry and Algebra 2 classes the same pre-assessment.  I need to go through it though and make some adjustments though.  I'd really like to speed through the first chapter without hitting any major road bumps in both classes - it should help greatly.  All that leaves left to do is actually write out some lessons for my Algebra 2 classes.  Thankfully, I have a binder filled with every lesson I ever did last year in Geometry - including worksheets and notesheets I handed out.  So score on not having to do work on that front.  In that respect, this year should be infinitely easier than last year.  I can bust out lessons like nobodies beeswax if need be plus this group of students should be able to handle doing homework out of the book.  No more sitting at the copy machine every morning to make 60 copies of the homework.

I am intrigued by the Algebra 2 book.  Almost like I was the Geometry book last year.  I had not done any geometry in almost 10 years - since I took it in high school.  The only thing I remember about it is having to explain things to the rest of the class because our teacher that year was :oP.  I'll leave it at that.  I don't remember much about Algebra 2 either - except that I took it with a teacher who was in fact shorter in stature than I was.  God, that made me feel good.  I know we learned about a whole bunch of different functions but that's about it.  It will be neat to talk about lines, quadratics, polynomials, matrices, logs, exponentials, rational, radical, piecewise, inverse, conic sections, some probability, and some sequences and series.  Hold Moly - did I say sequences and series?  That should be fun - like calculus fun.  Now that I write that all out - I have no idea how I will cover all of it.  I guess I need to try to fit six topics into this very short 1st semester and the move like heck through the rest of it.  Tomorrow starts the lesson writing insanity!

Other news - I'm pretty sure Silvio picked up a cold at this new place I boarded him at.  His breathing sounds all "stuffy" like if you had a stuffy nose.  Plus, his nose is running and that means he is creating these funny snot bubbles.  Plus, he seems very tired and has shorter bouts of energetic running around.  I might be calling up the vet if it doesn't improve.  :o(

Day 210

210 days  = 7 thirty-day months

That means there are only 5 thirty day months left in this deployment.  Even better (or maybe worse) we are closing on in the school year starting up.  Plus it is the fall semester and the fall semester is always shorter than the spring one.  This should be flying by.

It doesn't mean that I feel good today.  In fact we are celebrated today with an awful sinus headache (I really am allergic to Kansas) and body aches.  It is definitely a curl up in a ball day - which I have done and will continue to do.

On the bright side, Silvio and I should have a few visitors this month.  :o)  Also, I signed up for a few cooking classes at the local Hyvee.  I am very excited about this - as I am all things cooking.

Other big news - The No Crate Experiment has begun.  Since returning from the wedding and baptism, I have ventured to allow Silvio to stay out of his crate while I leave the house to go on errands.  We have worked our way to about 4 hours without being in the crate. I am proud to say I have returned home each time to find the house in tact.  I hope we can keep this up during the school year.  That also means if we get another pug puppy - I shouldn't need to buy a new crate - because Silvio can stay out and the new puppy can get crate trained.

Well, I can no longer sit in this computer chair, so I guess I am headed back to the curl up in a ball position.