Well, I'm going to take a little while to stop my studying, even though I know I really need to know this stuff. I figured I would write a little bit about my fall break and all that has ensued from that point on.
I spent most of the start of my fall break on an airplane- Yes cramped between people...or cramped in a tiny seat- even tiny by my standards. I guess the cool story I have from my plane flights is the trip from Dallas to El Paso. I guess the usual deal is that I end up being seated with some soldier or officer in the Army. I spend my time chatting with them for most of the flight. Not this time. El Paso was in an uproar, because the Rolling Stones were coming to play at the Sun Bowl on Friday evening. So this plane flight I actually got to sit next to a group of the sound engineers/roadies for the Rolling Stones. The poor things seemed really exhausted. But the guy I sat next to seemed to open up really quickly- talked about all the places they went to, and showed me pictures of the stage setup at different venues. Then proceeded to tell me he really didn't like the job at all, cause he was away from his son in Germany for like 5 months out of the year every year. It was an insightful trip.
The time with Andrew was really good- could have been better if his commander had been a bit nice and given him a bit of time off. But I have no control over that. I got a bit of work done while he was at work. We went out to a couple of nice restaurants, smoked some cigars (yes, they are growing on me quite quickly), went up high on the mountain, to the museum of science and the art museum. It was just so good. I love the rhythm we just fall into. Leaving on Sunday was...very difficult.
The past week brought me back to reality- huge tests, quizzes, and project that needed to be worked on. The test is tomorrow evening, quiz on Wednesday, project due Thursday. Not exactly pretty but I should be able to relax a bit after that.
Yesterday Andy left. It was not a good day. We spoke 3 times during the day. I have come to accept the fact that I haven't been able to be near him in the continental US. I've come to terms with that pain. But this...it hit me like a ton of bricks. Emotional hurt for me translates to physical pain and illness, cause that is just how I am. Last night was horrible- how quickly after that last phone call- I was immobile, unable to breathe, stand...function like a normal human being. I was violently ill. I've really only felt like that one other time in my life, and that time was/is just as difficult. No control over anything.
I hope that this can still be a place that I can outlet all of this without it seeming like "i'm that girl whose guy is over there". I think this helps a bit. Thanks to everyone who dropped me a line...or I talked too, it really really helps. I can't wait for this year to go flying by and Andrew is back here.
Hmm happy thoughts- my parents are coming this weekend, hurray!!! Only two weeks until the huge Sparacio family Turkey Day shin dig takes place- oh that will be..interesting.
Crud- I've spent to much time with my feelings and such. I need to attack this analysis stuff now. I will try very hard to post a bit more often so you all know I haven't fallen off the face of the earth.
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ouch.
If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate
There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down
If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly
It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own
Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate
There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down
If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly
It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own
Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
Fall Break
It is halfway through the semester here, so that only means that Fall Break has descended upon us. I'll be hopping on a plane in a few short hours to make my way to Texas for the weekend.
Just so you know what has been happening- I went to the SC state fair last friday. Now I'm used to carnivals and such, but this...this was huge. So large in fact that they provide a map of where everything is. There were all the normal things that one usually finds at a fair- except for Zeppoles, which in my humble opinion are the most fantastic fried carnival food one can eat. I had lots of fun eating and going on all the different rides and nearly scaring the ____ out of myself.
I managed to get my hands on a ticket to the SC vs. Tennessee football game. Probably the last big home game before the huge rivalry between Clemson gets started. Oh I won a game last week in fantasy football. I've been doing quite poorly so that has been a nice change.
In a couple of weeks I get to take the parents around Columbia. Hurray- since I haven't seen them since oh, yeah they day they moved me in, which is about 3 months. Don't know what exactly we'll do, but I have a little while to figure that out.
Oh holy moly- I need to stop now- have to get to my Calc 2 maple labs. Joy. I may be nice and let them out early today.
Just so you know what has been happening- I went to the SC state fair last friday. Now I'm used to carnivals and such, but this...this was huge. So large in fact that they provide a map of where everything is. There were all the normal things that one usually finds at a fair- except for Zeppoles, which in my humble opinion are the most fantastic fried carnival food one can eat. I had lots of fun eating and going on all the different rides and nearly scaring the ____ out of myself.
I managed to get my hands on a ticket to the SC vs. Tennessee football game. Probably the last big home game before the huge rivalry between Clemson gets started. Oh I won a game last week in fantasy football. I've been doing quite poorly so that has been a nice change.
In a couple of weeks I get to take the parents around Columbia. Hurray- since I haven't seen them since oh, yeah they day they moved me in, which is about 3 months. Don't know what exactly we'll do, but I have a little while to figure that out.
Oh holy moly- I need to stop now- have to get to my Calc 2 maple labs. Joy. I may be nice and let them out early today.
Weekend
Well, I have made it through another week. I've decided that this weekend should be filled with relaxation- which is great because the huge storm front moving through Columbia is really messing with my head at the moment. I hope to get most of my little around-the-apartment things done plus a couple of other projects finished up.
I am starting to feel better about the week, which is a good thing. I still have loads of school-related stuff that I should be getting to, but I think I can get away with taking my time on it- new homework sets, and grading two huge stacks of calc project reports. I might take a trip out to meet some of the other math grad students for what has been deemed "Saturday/Sunday tea".
I'm gonna brag a bit- I just have to say this is a great thing about being down south. It is October and I can walk around outside without any jacket. But the cool thing is the leaves are starting to turn a bit. It is a neat experience. I really like the area- if you discount the fact that I think I'm allergic to the state.
Now time for...
R-E-L-A-X.... don't do it
I am starting to feel better about the week, which is a good thing. I still have loads of school-related stuff that I should be getting to, but I think I can get away with taking my time on it- new homework sets, and grading two huge stacks of calc project reports. I might take a trip out to meet some of the other math grad students for what has been deemed "Saturday/Sunday tea".
I'm gonna brag a bit- I just have to say this is a great thing about being down south. It is October and I can walk around outside without any jacket. But the cool thing is the leaves are starting to turn a bit. It is a neat experience. I really like the area- if you discount the fact that I think I'm allergic to the state.
Now time for...
R-E-L-A-X.... don't do it
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Flush it down the toilet
Yes, so I was thinking I would have a good week this week. I actually felt good. Now, I want to vomit. Maybe that has something to do with the fact that I haven't had dinner yet, and am really just going on a bagel and a peanut butter sandwich all day. I propose another reason. I got my two exams back this week. Drum roll please- and my combined total score.....87 points. And I'll let you infer which class I got 15 points on the exam for. I think it will be quite obvious and logically clear. A rigorous proof follows (expletives have been carefully deleted)-
The professor missed half of the scheduled class times. He believes that every proof we do, it's obvious what tricks we need to use. Well, we don't have the freakin' tricks cause you didn't give us any ____________. I love how you assume that everything is clear and obvious- yes to you, mr. i've been doing this for 40 years. Not to me, I haven't taken an analysis course in over 4 years. Stupid _______ analysis. I think I threw up in my mouth several times during class. And then pretty much tell half the class you know, you really can't recover from your scores. Thanks buddy, I'll go jump off a bridge now too.
Yes-let us add exam scores to me starting to not feel so ______. Back to square one again. ____ me.
The professor missed half of the scheduled class times. He believes that every proof we do, it's obvious what tricks we need to use. Well, we don't have the freakin' tricks cause you didn't give us any ____________. I love how you assume that everything is clear and obvious- yes to you, mr. i've been doing this for 40 years. Not to me, I haven't taken an analysis course in over 4 years. Stupid _______ analysis. I think I threw up in my mouth several times during class. And then pretty much tell half the class you know, you really can't recover from your scores. Thanks buddy, I'll go jump off a bridge now too.
Yes-let us add exam scores to me starting to not feel so ______. Back to square one again. ____ me.
Finally the weekend
I figure I owe everyone a post. I have somewhat fallen off the face of the map. After Andy left, I was supposed to have a linear algebra exam on Friday of that week. The professor decided right beforehand to push the exam back one class period. Hurray for more studying time, but it didn't really matter. So this past week I had two exams - linear algebra and analysis. Yeah that wasn't cool at all. I feel Jen's pain that she went through the past two years. I totally failed both of those exams. I shouldn't have failed the linear algebra since I actually sort of knew what I was doing. But it feels so refreshing to hear that everyone else in my class thought the exams were just as bad as I did.
So this week has been pretty much as hellish as it can get. But at least I have the weekend to look forward to- like the wine-tasting get together, possibly a trip to the mall, sleeping late. I do have a bunch of other school crap...like grading and homework sets to that need to get done. Oh well.
Thanks everyone for the support on the last post. I am feeling better about everything but...it does hit me every now and again at the weirdest most inappropriate times- like when i'm speaking to my professors. I guess I'm just getting used to the reality of the situation.
Ack I need to eat and get ready for the shindig.
Signing off.
So this week has been pretty much as hellish as it can get. But at least I have the weekend to look forward to- like the wine-tasting get together, possibly a trip to the mall, sleeping late. I do have a bunch of other school crap...like grading and homework sets to that need to get done. Oh well.
Thanks everyone for the support on the last post. I am feeling better about everything but...it does hit me every now and again at the weirdest most inappropriate times- like when i'm speaking to my professors. I guess I'm just getting used to the reality of the situation.
Ack I need to eat and get ready for the shindig.
Signing off.
Empty
This past weekend has been absolutely amazing. Monday on the other hand....the opposite. It is the first time since I've been here that my apartment actually felt like a home. Having Andrew here was wonderful. Enjoyed a delicious dinner out Friday evening at a new place called Al's Upstairs. Really outstanding Italian food, very upscale, but god it was worth it. Saturday we went out tailgating with a couple of the friends I've made here at SC. Made a couple of yummy late evening dinners - with a little help of course. Not to mention someone started me on a very very bad behavior. But goodness, those cigars are quite soothing and relaxing.
But today, is not so great. Okay, so maybe I heard that I did everything right on my linear algebra quiz- big freakin' whooop-dee-do. But I left Andrew at the airport about an hour ago. My entire drive back to my apartment was a fight. I could feel the water welling up. I managed to make it back without accident and up to my place without really looking too horribly, but the second I closed that door-I found myself on the floor. I couldn't control it. My entire body just hurts - it aches. I managed to calm down a bit to go into the kitchen, but I saw dishes from breakfast this morning and it started all over again. It seems like everything is missing- it's all wrong.
I don't believe I've ever felt in this much pain- with one exception. I thought I was stronger. I don't think I'll get much sleep tonight- something is very very empty now and will be for a while. God, this week is just going to be a disaster.
I need to somehow calm down...I thought this would help a bit...but I haven't stopped sobbing at all.
But today, is not so great. Okay, so maybe I heard that I did everything right on my linear algebra quiz- big freakin' whooop-dee-do. But I left Andrew at the airport about an hour ago. My entire drive back to my apartment was a fight. I could feel the water welling up. I managed to make it back without accident and up to my place without really looking too horribly, but the second I closed that door-I found myself on the floor. I couldn't control it. My entire body just hurts - it aches. I managed to calm down a bit to go into the kitchen, but I saw dishes from breakfast this morning and it started all over again. It seems like everything is missing- it's all wrong.
I don't believe I've ever felt in this much pain- with one exception. I thought I was stronger. I don't think I'll get much sleep tonight- something is very very empty now and will be for a while. God, this week is just going to be a disaster.
I need to somehow calm down...I thought this would help a bit...but I haven't stopped sobbing at all.
Still Kickin'
Thanks to everyone who thought of me on my birthday. I really appreciate it.
I have made it through two whole weeks of class. In fact, I am quite proud of myself. But I did overstress myself quite a bit. Thus I have a bit of a sore throat now. But I can handle that. I am actually getting to the point where I am somewhat understanding what is going on in my classes. Comprehending what the profs are saying is extremely helpful.
It's also been great forming a new group of friends. Getting invited out to dinners and hang outs and game watching parties - has really helped me get over the being in a new place and missing everything that I know. Speaking of dinners and such - we went out to this sushi restaurant right by Ft. Jackson. The building isn't the most inviting place, but goodness the food was great. I have to remember to keep it in mind whenever I have company. I also went out to a totally southern restaurant chain called Lizards Thicket. Talk about fried everything. It was really yummy - not to mention cheap.
So I guess you could say I'm doing well - outside of my neuroticism about classes. Going to head out for a day of tailgating and football a bit later. SC vs. Georgia - you should watch it, 7:45 on ESPN. Maybe you'll see me on tv.
Only a couple of more days til I get a visitor = trying to get all of my work out of the way, plus lots of cleaning.
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I have made it through two whole weeks of class. In fact, I am quite proud of myself. But I did overstress myself quite a bit. Thus I have a bit of a sore throat now. But I can handle that. I am actually getting to the point where I am somewhat understanding what is going on in my classes. Comprehending what the profs are saying is extremely helpful.
It's also been great forming a new group of friends. Getting invited out to dinners and hang outs and game watching parties - has really helped me get over the being in a new place and missing everything that I know. Speaking of dinners and such - we went out to this sushi restaurant right by Ft. Jackson. The building isn't the most inviting place, but goodness the food was great. I have to remember to keep it in mind whenever I have company. I also went out to a totally southern restaurant chain called Lizards Thicket. Talk about fried everything. It was really yummy - not to mention cheap.
So I guess you could say I'm doing well - outside of my neuroticism about classes. Going to head out for a day of tailgating and football a bit later. SC vs. Georgia - you should watch it, 7:45 on ESPN. Maybe you'll see me on tv.
Only a couple of more days til I get a visitor = trying to get all of my work out of the way, plus lots of cleaning.
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a little worse for wear
I owe Suzer a couple of recipes so those are just a little lower. I am surviving I suppose. I had a quiz in linear today- I messed up half of the one question quiz. Great way to start off the weekend. Guess it's karma for me not really studying. Smooth, Theresa. Real smooth. I've seriously been reconsidering my whole ph.d notion. The masters track is looking really nice. I thought I was ambitious, but I suppose not. Maybe I'm just a minimalist. A masters could really almost let me do anything. How many people do you know have a masters in math? I guess I shouldn't rush into making up my mind so soon. It's only been a week and half really.
Oh I went out with Amanda, a bunch of her friends, and Ben from the grad program last night. We all got together to watch the USC vs Mississippi State game. We won if anyone cares 15-0. It was a lot of fun- had lots of yummy sort of food. Played a game of in the dark hide and seek. It's fun making new friends.
For Suz and cooking fiends everywhere I present my chicken and mushrooms recipe, and bbq pulled pork. I shall also rate difficulty...although I tend to only make things that are easy.
Chicken and Mushrooms - Simple: makes about 4-6 servings
What you need:
1/4 cup of flour
1 tsp of salt
1/4 tsp of pepper
package of skinless chicken breasts (about 6 pieces...or you can get chicken tenderloins)
1/4 cup of butter/margarine
1/4 cup of lemon juice from concentrate
8 ounces of sliced fresh mushrooms (about 2 cups)
Hot cooked rice
What to do:
Combine flour, salt and pepper. Coat chicken in mixture. In large skillet, brown the chicken in butter/margarine on both sides until golden brown. Add lemon juice and mushrooms. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for about 20 minutes. Serve over rice. **I tend to add a little more lemon juice about half of the way through the simmering process, cause well I like the lemony taste.**
Barbeque Pulled Pork - A Marathon: makes a lot. I suggest you make it only if you have lots of people around, or else you will be eating it for longer than you thought possible. Here goes nothing...
What you need:
1 tbs extra virgin olive oil
2 medium yellow onions, diced
2 tbs chili pepper
1 tbs cumin
2 tsp paprika
1 tsp cayenne
12 ounces of beer (lager)
3/4 cup of ketchup
3/4 cup cider vinegar
1/2 cup whole grain mustard
2 tbs tomato paste
chipotle pepper and adobo
1 5lb bone-in Boston Butt pork
What to do:
1. Preheat oven to 300. Heat oil in Dutch oven over medium-low heat. Add onions and cook until the onions are light brown.
2. Increase heat to high; add chili powder, cumin, paprika, cayenne and cook, stirring until fragrant. *It won't take long, trust me..it'll hit you...* Add beer, ketchup, vinegar, mustard, tomato paste, a dash of chipotle pepper and adobo; bringing it to a boil. Reduce heat to medium low and simmer uncovered until slightly thickened (10 mins). Meanwhile, trim the fat from the pork.
3. Remove pan from heat and add pork. Spoon the sauce over it. Cover pan, and place it in the oven and bake for 1.5 hours. Turn pork over, cover w/sauce, and bake for another 1.5 hours. Uncover and back until fork turns easily in the meat, 1 to 2 more hours.
4. Transfer pork to large bowl and cover w/foil. Pour sauce in measuring cup and refridgerate until fat and sauce separate, 15 min. Skim off fat. Return sauce to heat in pan (medium high until hot, 4 min).
5. Remove bone and remaining fat from meat. Bone should easily slip away from meat. Pull pork apart into shreds with 2 forks. Add hot sauce to meat; stir to combine. Serve hot.
Oh I went out with Amanda, a bunch of her friends, and Ben from the grad program last night. We all got together to watch the USC vs Mississippi State game. We won if anyone cares 15-0. It was a lot of fun- had lots of yummy sort of food. Played a game of in the dark hide and seek. It's fun making new friends.
For Suz and cooking fiends everywhere I present my chicken and mushrooms recipe, and bbq pulled pork. I shall also rate difficulty...although I tend to only make things that are easy.
Chicken and Mushrooms - Simple: makes about 4-6 servings
What you need:
1/4 cup of flour
1 tsp of salt
1/4 tsp of pepper
package of skinless chicken breasts (about 6 pieces...or you can get chicken tenderloins)
1/4 cup of butter/margarine
1/4 cup of lemon juice from concentrate
8 ounces of sliced fresh mushrooms (about 2 cups)
Hot cooked rice
What to do:
Combine flour, salt and pepper. Coat chicken in mixture. In large skillet, brown the chicken in butter/margarine on both sides until golden brown. Add lemon juice and mushrooms. Reduce heat; cover and simmer for about 20 minutes. Serve over rice. **I tend to add a little more lemon juice about half of the way through the simmering process, cause well I like the lemony taste.**
Barbeque Pulled Pork - A Marathon: makes a lot. I suggest you make it only if you have lots of people around, or else you will be eating it for longer than you thought possible. Here goes nothing...
What you need:
1 tbs extra virgin olive oil
2 medium yellow onions, diced
2 tbs chili pepper
1 tbs cumin
2 tsp paprika
1 tsp cayenne
12 ounces of beer (lager)
3/4 cup of ketchup
3/4 cup cider vinegar
1/2 cup whole grain mustard
2 tbs tomato paste
chipotle pepper and adobo
1 5lb bone-in Boston Butt pork
What to do:
1. Preheat oven to 300. Heat oil in Dutch oven over medium-low heat. Add onions and cook until the onions are light brown.
2. Increase heat to high; add chili powder, cumin, paprika, cayenne and cook, stirring until fragrant. *It won't take long, trust me..it'll hit you...* Add beer, ketchup, vinegar, mustard, tomato paste, a dash of chipotle pepper and adobo; bringing it to a boil. Reduce heat to medium low and simmer uncovered until slightly thickened (10 mins). Meanwhile, trim the fat from the pork.
3. Remove pan from heat and add pork. Spoon the sauce over it. Cover pan, and place it in the oven and bake for 1.5 hours. Turn pork over, cover w/sauce, and bake for another 1.5 hours. Uncover and back until fork turns easily in the meat, 1 to 2 more hours.
4. Transfer pork to large bowl and cover w/foil. Pour sauce in measuring cup and refridgerate until fat and sauce separate, 15 min. Skim off fat. Return sauce to heat in pan (medium high until hot, 4 min).
5. Remove bone and remaining fat from meat. Bone should easily slip away from meat. Pull pork apart into shreds with 2 forks. Add hot sauce to meat; stir to combine. Serve hot.
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