cyclic.

Well that is it. I am toast. I am going to be stuck in this cycle for a while. This just does not appeal to me at all.

I thought that I would have a job working on Saturday mornings. Not so. Apparently, the enrollment did not fill up quite like they had hoped. Now, I no longer have any engagements during the weekends. This probably means I will just be a bum around my house. Totally anti social. Great way to be if you want a change in your life right? Sure is.

Jeanne has wreaked havoc on my body. I swear I am a human weather vane. Any sort of pressure drop just causes my sinuses to go absolutely nuts. Hasn't made me a happy camper at work either.

I guess about the only happy thing I've got going for me today is the fact I got paid. This means, barring any crazy expenses, I will be able to get my new computer soon. It is sad when a 17 inch liquid crystal screen, G5 processor, dvd-cd writer, new imac is the only thing that gets you through the day.

I look forward to when my brother comes home in November. I am mad because I am taking the general gre the only day my brother has a full regatta in the fall. Hopefully next year I'll be able to catch a couple. Also looking forward to a Disney trip in December with my little cousins, and next June with the Slics and the Pics. Just like old times.

I'm pathetic. Just thought you would all like to know.

If something good happens, like a snail goes rolling by, I'm sure you will all hear about that excitement.

i'm only happy when it rains....

My whole body aches. My stomach isn't happy with me. My head is still thumping thumping. It was thumping thumping yesterday as well. I hate the fact that the weather affects me so horribly. Pressure drops just mess me up.

oh and one more thing. This one lady who I've helped with algebra, got started on the upcoming election. And for some reason no one can leave me alone about it. Not to mention whatever side someone takes on something, I automatically take the opposite just to make sure people have looked at everything. But what I really hate when people get all worked up about this crap...cause that is what it is....they make stupid assumptions. Like I'm a republican...or a democrat. Dude, I'm an independent that will play both sides.

Now, I'm happy that I have gotten that all off my chest. I just have 3 more hours of enduring this, then I can go home and do something not productive.

Rar- just watch the debate on Thursday night, I don't care who you vote for, but at least do something to make an informed decision on Nov. 2.

blog-didi-blog-blog

Okay, so...

I have really nothing to say, except comment on the cute guys that I help at work.

Guy 1: He lovingly calls me "The mother of his children." I helped him on several occasions to get his classes fixed, syllabi, homework assignments. So it is interesting seeing him every couple of days a week. Always lots of laughs, and much flirtation.

Guy 2: I really like him. Punk, now-died black hair, lip ring, quiet, handsome. :::swoon::: His name is Jason, he's 23 and taking Calc 2. It's horrible, I just like to stare at him. I have helped him from time to time. So it has been a good experience.

Guy 3: You all know I am a sucker for Paul Hamm. Well I swear to you. There is a guy who comes in here who looks like him, all freckly. Yet another reason to stare off into space.

I am a little mad today, cause the telephone people ruined my one day to sleep late. They were supposed to come at like 1 in the afternoon, but they called at 7:30 cause they were in the area. Bah wake me up from my beauty sleep. But I guess the upside is that by 8:30 I was wired. I just lost a quality hour of sleep.

Good stuff from the rest of the day: I only had one lab today. Beckie and I might go out Friday night, and then maybe go see a movie on Sunday...who knows. We are going bar/guy hunting. Hopefully, by the end of the year, we will either have found a bar we like or have dates. I think we can at least get one of those done.

Taping the OC special. I heart the OC.

quick one before the manic labs begin today

First-> Official Happy Birthday Wishes to Suzer!!! Yeey!!!

Second-> I was thinking about going to Homecoming on October 9th, but I might not. I know, bad Resa, but I could be teaching a prep course on Saturdays during October. I know, ctually,teaching. It is a prep course to get 8th graders ready to take the catholic high school entrance exam. Pretty much I'll be teaching prealgebra and algebra topics...like what I do here at BCC. Even better, I get paid. wahoo. That means more money toward my computer fund. *that reminds me I need to move things around in my room incase the phone company needs to get in there.* sorry randomness- the phone company is coming in tomorrow to get my line all wired and connected.

Thirdly-> I guess I really don't have a thirdly, except that this song is...super wonderful, by Keane called Somewhere Only We Know


I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?


I'll need to get it from itunes. Oh, I heart the Garden State Soundtrack, if I haven't said that already. It is so chill. How crazy is this, Resa all about the chill music. yikes.

Fourthly-> I'm on my way starting to make lists of grad schools. Applied Math here I come.

I lied I guess I had many things to say.

Love to everyone. Does anyone want to do something Friday or Saturday this weekend? Cause I would love to not sit around like a bump on a log.

so far…still more to go

Hi, all. Just figured I would give an update on my life. It is as you would chuggin’ along. I have so many things going on in my head. It is getting so hard to keep track of them all. So maybe if I write it all down then it will help.

Last Friday, I drove over to visit my Suzer, Cryssy, and Hester. Their house is soooo cute. I would like one of my own some day. *It won’t happen any time soon.* We went out to Dairy Queen and had some yummy ice cream. Then we went back to their house, stayed up late and watched a movie. Yey, I miss watching movies with my girls, even if Cryssy goes to bed early. Same ol’ Cryssy sleeping habits. After the movie was over, Suzer and I stayed up late just chatting. Ugh, hurts my heart cause I now perpetually feel disconnected from everyone. It isn’t a nice feeling. I suppose that explains my current job- constantly in contact with people all day.

Saturday, I slept nice and late because I could. We decided to go see Garden State since Suz and Crys did not yet have the pleasure of viewing that wonderful movie. It was so good, even the second time around. We looked around at a furniture place. Then we waited back at their place for Chris to arrive. It was good to see him. It was great to hear how the GRE went, considering I will be taking mine in just about a month. Once the hurricane had finally gotten everything out of it’s system, we made our way to West Chester for a wonderful dinner at the Iron Hill Brewery and Restaurant. Everything was delicious- the house beers, the food. Not quite MarketCross, but I’ll take it.

After all of that, I sadly drove home. I have to say the trip isn’t all that bad. Not to hard, and the one toll is manageable. So I now have many reasons to go and visit.

Sunday, I spent doing laundry, fixing more of my room, as well as going out to the mall with the parents. It was a nice trip, outside of me not finding the jeans I wear, or a nice pair of shoes, or the minor argument with my dad over getting a new comforter because my old comforter had the thread unraveling from it. But I won on the comforter issue. Besides, I was the one who was paying for the comforter. Now almost everything matches in my room, and I only really have about one more pile left I need to get rid of.

Yesterday, was an okay day at work. I found out earlier that I needed a professional development plan for the rest of the year. But I learned yesterday that it could include everything from the learning assistant round table meetings, to me working through the course material for a course I am not familiar with. Hurray! I also chatted with one of the instructors here who saw me with my gre book. He said, forget about it. Don’t even study for it. It isn’t worth it. Just study for the Math Subject test. Apparently- with all the prealgebra stuff I do everyday, it’s enough to get me through the entire Math section. The only thing I really need to do, is brush up on vocab and learn how to read comprehensively. No offense to all those verbal part lovers- I don’t care about the analytical writing section. If I really put my mind to it, I can create an absolutely wonderful sentence. I just choose not to do it here. That just wouldn’t be me. But last night I did meet up with Steve, and we went over some vocab and math problems. I got all of the math problems right except for one. Go me! So I think, every couple of days I will work a little bit on vocab and reading comp before the test on Oct. 31. At least I get to have lots and lots of candy afterwards. Then the journey of how to tackle the Math Subject test will begin.

Cool stuff I’m waiting for:
~~~I think in about a month I will have enough moola to buy the computer I want, assuming it doesn’t look bad up close compared to the pictures on the internet.
~~~Aladdin comes out on DVD on October 5. Mulan comes out on October 26. The OC First Season comes out on October 26th as well...

Catch yall later.

You say Hello....

Just wanted to quickly say hi, being it is getting towards the end of the day here at work.

The weekend was quiet. RU lost to UNH. Depressing, but not so much because I don't think they are that great a team. But to salvage the day, I think we ate for about 5 hours straight. Other than that, the big deal was me doing laundry. Wahoo :::wiggles finger around in a circle:::

Work is alright. Nothing to report really, except on of the gals i helped with precalc over the summer came and told me she passed the class with a B. Hurray. I get paid on Wednesday which will be nice.

Tuesday will be dedicated study for GRE time. I've got to get crackin', month and a half until the test. Hang out get some coffee with Steve and study like mad.

I finished reading Wicked. Quote:

"What does a dragon in its shell look like? Well no one can ever tell, for as soon as you break the shell to see the dragon is no longer in its shell. The real disaster of this inquiry is that it is the nature of evil to be secret."

Good Stuff. I can't wait until Frida/Saturday so I can visit the gals for Suzer's Birthday.

Oh goodness...with all the question answering...it's time to go. TTYL.

and so it goes, and you’re the only one who knows.

As you can guess, it is Thursday evening, and I’m still at work. I’ll be here until 9 o’clock, whether I like it or not. Things are slow going for the first week. They say this isn’t indicative of how it is the rest of the semester. How am I supposed to know? But I seem to have at least an hour or so during the day where I am not particularly busy. So I can get a few things taken care of.

I get in today and receive a phone call from Human Resources. Apparently, they still have not received my transcript (it has been a month). My working here depends upon this transcript. I think it is HR’s fault. I know Dickinson received my transcript request on August 10. I talked to them this morning, and they sent my transcript on August 12th. So either the mail service lost it, or HR is a bunch of fools, and do not know how to file things. My feeling is the latter.

Otherwise, work has been going well. I got through all of my introductions. I ran through my grading policy, and all about the labs. Yippee. Actually running the labs, well, anyone with any sort of college degree could take charge of these labs. Granted some of the questions I get asked during the rest of the day, not many people would be able to or want to answer. But it is all so very, very routine. I have been lucky though. The somewhat...light schedule here affords me some time to get to catch and talk to people…like beck, suzy, steve, dana, not to mention some of my lovely infernos throughout the day. One a totally random note, has anyone talked to Scotty, my wonderful physics senior research partner lately? I have no idea what he is up too. I’m just wondering.

So what is going on with my life...since I’ve already told you what I’ve been doing. Since early this morning, my life has been set in motion. I finished up making the arrangements for the GRE’s and the math subject test. I’m taking the general test (computer) on October 31 and the math subject test on December 11. Now that I’ve done that I can finally commit myself to studying for the darn things. So I’m going to just try to continually look over things in my free time.

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Happy Birthday to Sam!!! I know, kinda early.
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Not happy news here. Sadly, I found out that Fox moved my only favorite show, the OC to Thursday evenings. AT 8PM. That means I can’t watch the OC because I will be at work until 9 pm. Not fair. Quite depressing.

Jumpin’ around here, last time I swear. Have you ever known someone that you, how do I say this, can very easily talk with? There is nothing hard or unsettling about it. Have you ever been put in a situation where that person wants to go off somewhere and you fully support that but you can’t cause that would make you unable to speak with that person for some extended period of time. WTF is that? why? I don’t understand myself.

But that isn’t majorly important…I mean it is, but it isn’t. OH I’m magically confusing, aren’t I?

Well I can’t think of much else, outside of my computer, which I’m putting off indefinitely until I have the money to even consider buying it. How can things go right, but yet, so wrong?

Evening folks.

We multiply like we’re mathematice…

Oh the insanity. What a weekend! It almost felt like I was back at Dickinson. I had something to do almost everyday. I guess it is time to share then isn’t it?

Last Thursday, after having gotten over my craziness (last post), work was over, and I drove like a crazy person back home. My parents took me out to Shogun 27 to have a wonderful hibachi birthday dinner. It was so fun, especially with the flaming volcano onion! hurray! By the time we finished, it was about 8:30-9 pm and we had birthday brownies that my mom made.

Friday morning, I got up early, ran some errands, one of which was to get my haircut. It is now nice and short. I still find myself running my fingers through my hair only to find that it is super short. I like it. You will all get to see it soon I suppose. I spent the rest of the day redesigning my bedroom. It has been one way for the past, I guess, six years or so. It no longer felt like it was my room. So I moved the bed around and rearranged everything. Unfortunately, all the piles that were hidden before, were now left out in the open in my room. I also tried the phone line that is in my room. No dial tone. Apparently, all the wiring is there, it just isn’t hooked up at all. Bah, things keep looking bleaker for my getting of a new computer. I might wait a couple of more months (need more money to pay for it) before I get it.

Saturday was super fun sunburn day. My parents and I met up with a whole bunch of people at 11:30 in the morning to tailgate before the Rutgers vs. Michigan State game. We had so much food I felt like a pig. A couple of parking spaces down from us, was a huge group of alumni and students. They had this wonderful flip cup table action going on. They challenged some nearby MS students to a game. The RU students beat them handily. Go figure. Anyways, we tailgated until about 2:30 ish, at which point we made our way to the stadium. Now, I haven’t been to an RU football game in about 5 years. Nobody used to go to games. But today, the place was packed. You could barely move around the stadium. It was a “sold out” crowd of 42,612. It was an amazing sight to be seen. A full Rutgers stadium. The game was great. RU beat Michigan State 19-14. It was so great, all of the students stormed the field after the win. The atmosphere was electrifying. After the game, we came back to the cars we had some more tailgating fun. By the time we left it was about 9:30 at night. Not to mention the amount of sunburn I had from it.

Sunday, I invited Beckie and Steve to come with me and my parents to the Rockin’ Oldies Wine Festival in Waterloo Village. Thank goodness that it was cloudy and cool out or else my sunburn would have been sooo bad. The wine was alright. But the day out was overall very good. We had this awesome pulled pork sandwich. yum yum. Afterwards, we came back home, ordered some Papa John’s pizza and watched Friday the 13th and Pirates of the Caribbean. Just really nice to chill out with beck and steve.

Labor Day- hurray for a day off. It was a super exciting day of laundry and more room rearranging. The piles are now gone. So I’m now really happy with the way my room looks. Oh, I got these super soft sheets from target. Sleeping in bed has never been so wonderful.

That brings us to today. First day of classes at BCC. Total and utter insanity. Had to park in timbuktoo because of all the students. At least I only have one lab to do today. So it shouldn’t be so bad. Tomorrow will be worse with 3 labs. Yikes.

Catch ya’ll later!

raindrops keep fallin’ on my head…

Well, I suppose it is time for a birthday update. Do I feel different? No. Do I feel better? No. Do I feel worse? Quite possibly so.

On Tuesday, I was surfing the web to find to my absolute joy and pleasure, that Apple had finally released their new imac computer ( http://www.apple.com/imac ). Now I have been waiting almost a year to get myself a new computer. My ibook (4 years old) has had several massive identity crises while I’ve had it. I was seriously considering, right before senior year, getting a new computer. But I talked myself out of it, thinking I could make it last one more year if I had to. I just really needed it to write papers and work instant messenger. Well the year went alright, it had another identity crisis as well as the cd-rom drive becoming a temperamental little bass-turd. All spring I’ve had my eye on the new G5 powermac machines. Super duper out of my price range. But once they unveiled this new computer, I knew this was the one...love at first sight. Well I get home, tell my parents all about it. Dad says…you don’t need one. We have two computers, you can use those. It isn’t like you need it. My mom somewhat came to my defense. But we all know me...what did I agree to...no computer. I’ll keep using my crappy old laptop...the concession I got was there is a phone line in your room so you can hook up the laptop to phone up in your room. Yippee-friggin’-do.

Yesterday, I spent most of my day at work trying to check out all the Master’s programs in the state of NJ. Most depressing thing I think I’ve done ever. Because of my work schedule, I can only take classes...either really early (8 am) in the morning or late at night (after 7). Well no school here…and I mean no, cause I’ve checked every single one, has any classes that fit in there. Screw me. There goes plan number 2 down the toilet. Yet again I make the mistake of telling my parents about it. My dad says, well then you need to leave your job in a year and get yourself out. Because if you’ve been out of school longer than a year, you’ll lose everything. Mom was little better. Ugh, I feel sick.

All I am trying to do is be...my own autonomous entity. I’m slowly realizing that it is really hard to do when you are still at home with your parents. They seem to have an opinion on every aspect of my life, if I tell them about it. I want to talk to them, but then I get preached at what is the best way to solve my problem. I don’t want that. I want to figure it out myself. But goodness, I am getting sick and tired of it. I am a smart intelligent person, or so I dilute myself. If I have questions or problems, I am not afraid to ask, but god, if I don’t ask, I don’t want to know.

Musical Interlude...Gavin deGraw’s I Don’t Wanna Be, the chorus...it is just a catchy tune, I might have to buy it from iTunes soon:

I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me


But on the happy birthday side of things:

My brother is super awesome. He sent me a Marcus Vick jersey, and get this...it actually is the right size. Wahooo. I heart Matt and football. I’ll be stylin’ it sometime soon.

Dana sent me this cute card, which Chloe picked out. It had a pug on it and everything. But she said a present was coming soon. Oooooo. I’m super excited about it. I heart presents.

Speaking of presents, Suzer also sent me something in the mail. She gave me these two super a-dork-able notebooks, one that has on the front Science Rocks and the other has I (picture of a calculator) Math. sigh...in heaven.

If you don’t think I say this enough…here it goes: I really miss my housie gals. Life doesn’t seem so carefree or full of adventure as it once was. I think I owe the fact that I’m not a mentally insane person to you all.

Well, life is crazy. I suppose I need to come up with a new life plan now, continue to use my slow little clamshell computer, and decide whether or not do anything this weekend. Right now I don’t know…maybe I’ll just redo my bedroom instead of go out, it is in dire need of redesign.

thanks...and oh yeah, happy birthday to me.

Start of classes...but not for me.

Oh it feels so odd to not be at Dickinson, running around like a chicken with my head cut off, worrying about this or that class, and what books I need. But good luck to everyone who happened to start today, including the Suzer, who is super awesome taking grad courses.

Speaking of Dickinson, I went up on last Friday. It felt so…different. Walking around campus, felt good in a creepy nostalgic way. yikes! Got to see my Infernos, yeeey. Happy Birthdayness to Jess and Jason, cause their birthday is the same as mine!! The actual performance didn’t go beautifully, but I really don’t have to worry about that much. I handed off my version of Good Vibrations to Karena, so I am pretty much done. Done, Done Done. I also got to hang out with the townhouse boys. Sam, Ben, Giesey, and Chris are the super awesomest! We went to Marketcross. Oh that felt good. So good, a good couple of beers and good company. We came back to their house, to find a huge party going on. And fancy that, Geoffy was there. It was good to see him, but after all of last year, it’s definitely sunk in that we won’t be anywhere near as close as we were at the end of junior year. sigh. But all in all, the trip was a success. Yey for having some place to crash if I ever came up again…hurray boys’ futon! *my story might have been more detailed if I had written it when I got back. I’m just super lazy here at work.*

Sunday evening I decided to go see the movie Garden State by Zach Braff, you know that guy who plays on Scrubs. After having sometime to think about it, I really did like the movie. Something about it, just really connected with my life right now. The general malaise, inability to do anything, trying to breakaway and become your own self, it was so good. The movie had it’s dark moments, but it also had some side-stitching parts, where I suppose if you were in Jersey you would totally get. Like this one part where you see this guy dressed up in full armor. The guy works at Medieval Times. Just something about the fact that before the character even says he works there, you know he works at MT cause you live in Jersey. The two just go hand in hand. Well, not to mention that a xc teammate of mine works there, so that makes it about 15 times more hilarious. But this is just funny:

Sam (Natalie Portman’s character): Hey, I recognize you from T.V. Didn't you play the retarded quarterback?
Andrew Largeman (Zach Braff’s character, he’s a struggling actor): Yea
Sam : Are you really retarded?
Andrew Largeman : No

Well the bit that really got me was this right here, cause I think this sums up everything about post college life:

Andrew Largeman : You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? That idea of home is gone. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place.

Sigh, so go and see this movie if you have the time too. The more I think about it, the more I like it.

Hmm what else? Today I emailed the Graduate Director at the Rutgers Math department for info about the graduate program there. Hopefully I can get things to work out so that Brookdale will pay for some of my classes while I get my Masters degree. Then I think I will get the heck out of here and find myself a Ph. D program. On Friday, I am getting my haircut. I think it will be short. I can’t stand dealing with it anymore. So it is going bye bye. Saturday, my parents have tickets to see RU football, so I’m going to hang out with them for the afternoon. I am also trying to figure out something fun to do for my birthday. Like an outing or something of that nature. Everything is so expensive here though. The only thing I could come up with is: 1. brave the craziness at the beach, or 2. on Sunday in Waterloo there will be the Rockin’ Oldies Wine Festival, wine tasting, fun, games, and such. I’d love to try to go into the city to see a show, but that would be really out of my price range. Oh well, I am spent. Ugh it’s 2 pm and I still have 3 more hours of work :oP